// February 17th, 2009 // No Comments » // Ramblings
Maybe HR messed up? I am still waiting on that “Whoops, we accidentally sent you the wrong email. We actually DO want to hire you” email to come in. Fat chance. I had all my eggs in one basket on this one. Fall down seven times, get up eight. Right? It’s just one job. It just happens to not be the one for me. That is fine. There are other jobs. This would have been the “easy” resolution. Who knows where I’m headed now. Don’t really have much direction. Yet again I am faced with having to decide if I want to continue to try to do the music thing as a profession. Fuck. I am mainly upset because I still have to wake up and be at Starbucks tomorrow at 5am to make ends meet. It’s going to be super easy to get down on myself. I had thought out a new world in Carrboro, but it is not meant to be. The Lord has other plans for me. I am going to apply to Raleigh Times. Not music related at all, but I think I’d enjoy it. Maybe they’ll hire me and I’ll get to learn a thing or two about bartending or cooking. I guess I’m dealing with what I think my perception of success is. All I really want is to travel a bit more often, read some good books, and play music with friends. If the service industry can provide that, then I am content with that. Dream the impossible dream. Fuck.